Seven years have passed since our World was shattered. Seven years is a long time; a lot of days and moments and hours. People don't ask about Jude that often anymore - we are busy and happy with the gorgeousness and mundanity of being parents to our two little girls and when people ask how many children I have I say: "Two girls."
There was a school outing this week where the kids ended up entertaining themselves and a group of moms sat down and started chatting. The conversation came around to a local tragedy of the death of a one-year old boy.
‘Losing a child, wow, I just don’t know how you can possibly survive that’ said one of the moms.
It's an ordinary passage in an ordinary home, maybe six metres long.
It's the place where I painfully paced at the start of labour, your arrival beckoning. Up and down, up and down, your dad timing contractions and feeling helpless as he watched me writhe in pain.
Here she is - India Jane. She’s now nearly 3 weeks old.
Since we found Jude, Saturday mornings have never quite been the same for me - they have held the association with death and our change in perspective of the world. So it feels right that India arrived early on a Saturday morning - I now have a more recent and powerful association of life being brought into this world.
A few weeks back, Yabonga (a non-governmental organisation which supports women, men and children who are infected or directly affected by HIV/Aids) approached me to take some portraits of some of their community mothers in various townships around Cape Town, for a fundraising event in The Netherlands in a few weeks time. I spent a few hours in Khayaletsha, Phillipi and Samora Michelle, briefly visiting some of these women who open up their homes to their communities.
Everytime I go into these areas, I am left feeling humbled at the vibrance, enthusiasm and resourcefulness of the people who live there.
I bumped into someone today who asked me how my trip was. What trip? I wanted to ask. We got back 2 weeks ago and it feels very far away. I've had a lot of people asking me for photos from our holiday and am determined not to let a whole year go by before I get to them! (Yes, Bali is still to come!)