A letter to my Judle Noodle

A letter to my Judle Noodle

06 May 2013

My most precious Judle-Noodle

I remember bringing you home from the hospital, sitting on my couch, crying tears of happiness at your arrival into our lives. You had come early and there was no one to help me out, but I knew that we would be fine. We were home and you were mine.

I watched with pride as you gurgled and grew into a stocky, gorgeous boy who embraced every moment to the full, pudgy hands exploring everything, never missing a beat. You loved everyone around you with random hugs and lap visits and you charmed your way into random people's hearts. I wondered how I could have been so lucky to get such a happy, loving, friendly child.

I could not believe that life could be so cruel when I found you cold and lifeless in your cot last Saturday morning. The autopsy revealed that you had a random reaction to a viral infection which caused myocarditis which pretty much feels like a lightning bolt.

The gaping hole you have left in our hearts is unbearable. Life will never ever be the same without your bright blue eyes, contagious laugh and unending enthusiam for anything and everything. The journey from you wriggling in my belly to clinging onto my hips has been the most fulfilling and amazing one and I will never be the same again.

On a practical note to my clients - I will be taking a few weeks break from family and baby shoots as it's all a bit raw at the moment but will be back in action soon!

There are a few more images of Jude on my other site from his very short life:

Comments (9)

  • 13 March 2010 at 09:02

    Girish - All my emotions and feelings are with you. Sincere condolences. I hope you recover from this loss soon. Do take care.

  • 15 March 2010 at 12:37

    Debbie Tembo - Oh Jules, to even put words 'to paper' like this to express your emotions, displays your strength and courage at a time of such deep deep loss. I wish that we were not so far away, but we're reaching out to you in spirit with much love. Jude will always live on in you so hold on tight to the memories of your beautiful little boy and may your and your partner's life be a tribute to his. Much much love, take care, Thabo, Debbie and Lerato

  • 16 March 2010 at 07:59

    Lauren Doyle - Jules, we are so deeply saddened by your loss. Our thoughts and brings are with you and your hubby, that you will find some comfort and peace at this time. Lauren and Stuart

  • 19 March 2010 at 00:11

    sam ellis - OH WOW Jules - you have remained in our hearts since the first time we met to our family shoot. From all of us from the bottom of our hearts I say sorry. Biggest - warmest - special Ellis hugs to you and your family. Sam

  • 22 March 2010 at 14:06

    Emma - Jules, Although I haven't met you, I have been following your blog (as I feel that you have a great talent), and I've just cried rivers for you... with my little guy being a similar age, and it seems temprament to yours (and currently not feeling so great), the reality of what you've just been through hit me like a ton of bricks, and you've just reminded me to take each hour as a gift and not to take it for granted! My prayers are with you during this time... Emma

  • 23 March 2010 at 01:03

    Taryn & Grant Harris - I am deeply sadened to hear about your loss. I don't think any words can convey condolence or make you and your family feel any better. But, just wanted to let you know that we are thinking about you during this difficult time. Love, Taryn and Grant

  • 23 March 2010 at 16:13

    Lara Fairall - Jules, I can't believe what I have just read. My heart goes out to you and your partner as you face these dark difficult first weeks. Look after yourself. My thoughts are with you. Much love, Lara.

  • 31 March 2010 at 13:39

    Busi - Jules, we're thinking of you during this difficult time. Busi and Peter

  • 01 April 2010 at 14:57

    Katie and Ryan - Jules, we are sending you heaps of love and thinking of you. Katie and Ryan

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